You're never here when I need you
So what's the point in going on
We can continue with this daydream
Hiding everything that's wrong
But everytime I hear your words
They sound more empty than my heart
The space I saved there just for you
Has been consumed by growing dark
We can pretend that we are happy
With the closeness we have lost
Joke away the million worries
Ignore the bonds that've turned to rust
But when we're once again together
Playing a game no one else can see
I feel the pain within dig deeper
Taking hold, growing roots inside me
But I can see right through your mask
The one you wear day in, day out
I see your core beneath the layers
The real person trying to claw out
The one I thought loved me for who I am
Who didn't punish without a cause
The same one who pushed me far away
Without a thought, without a pause
And yes you're back, just like the last time
Treading eggshells, emotions raw
Dancing round the conversation
Pretending we're good, Just like before
Trying hard to put 'it' behind us
But your words still cut, sharp as a saw
This time I won't let myself be used
I don't want to play this game anymore...
Chow For Now
JenStar x
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